As I sit here and type, I am conscious of my pedometer kind of poking into my gut as it is attached to the waist of my pants.
Hey, that's a good thing! For the minor irritation of it, and the new "tick" I have of constantly checking to see whether it is still attached and counting, wearing my pedometer, from morning until night, has become a very tolerable and enjoyable new habit, despite the minor irritation it provides.
It's been well over a week since I've worn it daily, and it is so entirely motiving. One step, two steps, three steps....six thousand steps...and counting! Wearing a step counter proves that the tiniest amount of effort, just one little step, can add up into something potentially big!
I love how wearing my pedometer makes me FEEL - motivated to move because I see IMMEDIATE GRATIFICATION! I've become motivated to challenge myself, too! Can i walk just a little further?
Paul McKenna, the Hypnosis guy, says, "Anything you count, you improve."
It's so true! In counting daily, my numbers have been steadily growing.
My energy has been steadily growing too!
One step at a time, we can create BIG CHANGES!
My winter coat feels looser!
Little inconveniences....like getting up to get something (when Cliff could get it for me, instead), or taking a further parking spot....suddenly become attractive and desirable because I know they'll add to a higher step count!
McKenna is brilliant and the REAL DEAL. I have never felt such gratitude for a program.
You know what? The program works!
Time will truly tell, but so far, my eating habits have changed radically in a little over a week.
I listen to the CDs and watch the DVDs, and then I actually do what he says. I suppose I'm responding to his powerful suggestions. I log my success in the Rapid Results Success Tracker. I wear the pedometer daily. I eat when I'm hungry, what I want, I savor my food, and turn from it when I'm satisfied.
I am radically calmer around food.
I have not had a binge in over a week.
I eat slower. I eat less. I count my bites. I make good choices. I walk more. I'm back to my long hilly "Manayunk" walks! When I look in the mirror, I send myself lots and lots of love and acceptance no matter what I see looking back at me.
McKenna says, "You have to accept yourself as you are." Only in doing this, constantly, can we ever hope to move forward.
And, to boot, I've experienced upset feelings this week, but did not turn to food.
I have also found togetherness helps, tremendously. Cliff has been so supportive. We eat almost all of our meals together now. He reminds me to slow down. We chat. I put my fork down between bites. I try more to mimic his timing. Suddenly, my eating has become... Dare I say it? NORMAL.
Before working on the McKenna plan, I'd fallen BADLY, again, into continual binge and sneak-eating, alone, purely to feed emotional hunger. The more I did it, the lonelier, and more depressed and hopeless I became.
Emotional eating serves many needs, but leaves one with TREMENDOUS negative consequences, and no way out.
I really didn't see a way out. I am incrediulous that this "so-called gimmick" program is having such a HUGE impact. I'm really changing, effortlessly.
It is effortless effort. I do it....because I want to.
I'm eating amounts of a normal person, 2-3 meals a day with a snack or two sometimes. I've moved from what I learned at the Better Living Lifestyle Center (2 meals a day because the founder of the Seventh Day Adventists, Ellen White, said so) to something more intuitively driven. It feels RIGHT for today.
My mood is highly improved and I'm hopeful. Learning to eat from HUNGER is what is going to ULTIMATELY cure me for life. I am learning SELF CONTROL and it's not even hard, or impossible, as I had thought.
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We eat Vegan, mostly. Lots of salads, nuts, seeds, vegetables, beans, whole grains, fruit. Green smoothies almost every day. We save the egg/dairy for treats. I try to keep everything as unprocessed as possible. If I want other stuff, maybe i'll eat it. We'll see.
I'm not giving myself any guilts over raw. I trust that the more and more attuned I become to my body, the more and more raw I will desire. This is a PROCESS. First things first.
My good friend, Sheryl, says, "Anyone can follow a diet for a short time, but what can you stay with for a lifetime?"
Bingers always binge out of plans, so I purposely don't have a plan. My choices come from my desires. I'm glad my desires are as healthy as they are right now.
I feel a wonderful sense of freedom and flexibility and peace around food today. I'm learning to trust my desires. I'm learning I can take care of myself.
My goal today is not 100% raw, but to be 100% cured of chronic binge eating, overeating, and of morbid obesity. I believe, finally, that I've found a program that is teaching me how to get there by empowering me to do it myself!
I'm taking things at a pace comfortable to me. McKenna gives permission to do that.
I'm enjoying where I am at right now. I'm not terribly concerned about weight loss. It's happening very slowly.
I don't weigh myself anymore.
This time is all about severing that bond to emotional eating...for good.
No more putting the CART before the HORSE.
I finally have come to terms with the fact that, I, as a binge eater, must re-learn how to eat normally and develop the confidence that I have control with food, before I can refine my choices, and actually have them stick, long term.
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Curiously, the rest of life takes care of itself when answering HUNGER is paid attention to! Babies learn this...why did I never?
Yes, there are OTHER things BESIDES FOOD that can serve to:
- stimulate, etc...
McKenna says we are trying to HELP ourselves by using food, it's just our faulty "programming" that is at fault.
For instance, my soul feels fed because I just got back from a lusicous "Manayunk walk" with Cliff. We saw some dogs at the park! I could have easily easily eaten everything in fridge to fill my empty hole in the soul. Instead of abusing food, this activity provided a real answer for real needs for:
- sensory stimulation
- self pride
And food never tasted as good as it does when I am truly hungry for it.
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WWW.THEWALKINGSITE.COM is a good website. According to the website, 10,000 steps a day, or 5 miles a day, TOTAL, is ideal for long term weight control and health.
On a good day, where I take a good walk and am active all day (or on a busy day where I work as a raw chef), I have been getting over 6,000 steps/day. On a less active day, I've tracked 3,000 - 4,500.
The website claims that sedentary people get between 1,000-3,000 steps a day, although I am sure that on some of my worst sedentary days, I did not even get over 500 steps in the entire day.
Upping our average weekly steps by 500 per week is suggested until we reach 10,000/day.
McKenna states that 2,000 steps is about a 15 minute walk.
I can DO that! (So can you!)
In fact, I can get 250 steps just by walking down my street, half way!
It's amazing how steps add up. I'm SO excited to keep going with this! Won't you join me?
xoxo michelle joy